No i am not being a drama bitch....just a honest one !

Soooo i am officially sad. Now normally such a event is a cause for joy because ,well, that's the only time i am able to write.But not today.You see I have been so obsessed with the cause of all the sadness that i forgot to use it to inspire myself to write.

Ofcourse I have wondered time and time again about my being able to write only during melancholic periods. Is it because i can appreciate the funny side of life or is it because i am just a plain old loon with a brain that works in the most abnormal of ways ?

Haven't really figured it out yet you see.

Which brings me to another paradox regarding me.Normally when bloggers see a long gap between published posts it causes them heart burn because they didn't update for so long.Not for me. Nuh uh. For me it's a good sign, cuz i can look at those gaps and know for sure that during that time i was actually at peace with myself ,if not a full blown happy person, and the world. It's the dates when i have actually posted that i detest because with each of them i associate a bad event.

Yes, each and every one.

So you can understand how bitter sweet this blog is for me.I mean i hate this blog for all the memories it has of all the worst possible moments yet i cant delete it because i have met some great people here and they have turned out to be awesome friends in real life (you know who you are... pat yourselves on the back !).

Hence the blog stays. For now.

Ofcourse i also realise that eventually i will get disgusted enough and delete this sorry little mofu's ass out of cyberspace but until that day I ,weirdo guy, promise to make fun out of my misery for the better or worse.

So god help me .

Amen.